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Saturday, January 30, 2010

what i feel, and how i feel

how's the feeling of being isolated??
one by one all having their own emotions and fat lan za [got mad] and show me face, i gotta suffer from all these??? i deserved it???
how hard i gotta comfort everyone and make a new plan again?? it's like a rubber band, the harder you pull it, it will of course be more elastic, and the more you pull it, it will break off, i was stuck in the middle, what to do?? everyone has their own emotions, and of course i have it, i am trying so hard to save this friendship and all of you like non of your business like tht?? wth, it's not only my friendship, you all have no responsible on it???? and why am i the only person who hold this issue so hard, while you all don't give a damn on it??? i just don't get la.. you have bad mood i know, you try hard to make yourself high i also know, but then why la like i force you all like that??? and at the 1st place, you're the one who said you and her don't have the mood to come, and why don't you tell me?? like i force you all come like that??? it's so hard for us to have a gathering, i m holding it hard because this is maybe last time??everyone is so damn busy, when can we have a NEXT SESSION?? well, maybe you think why la so hard to maintain this friendship la, just leave it, i have my own mindset that if you don't maintain it, it will totally whittle away...which i really don't want it to happen, especially you GUYS, don't take it for granted, we made efforts...really will fat fo when no ones actually appreciates it...they just think that yes, it should be this way, without the gathering also no problem, still friends, yes, if this is how you think, you are so WRONG! it's a so called birthday plan, and we wanna surprised you all and yet it failed and so many drama happened, on and off on and off so many times, i know why she'll be so mad, and i know another her got her own problems in relationship, i didn't ask you all to do anything, just be cooperative? actually i know everyone has their own problem, and i admit i don't like to see emo face on and off, it's actually unavoidable, coz it's hard to control emotions sometimes, and i had that moment before, and i know how it feels...
anyway, i hope the so called birthday party didn't bore you all...it's a bit cacat, but then sorry, i m lacked of time...it's quite in a hasty..so if you didn't enjoy or bore you all, i apologize profusely....

urgh, friendship is very important to me, it has the same rank with family, anyway, i m just grumbling, don't care lah..don't wanna push it so hard liao, just follow the flow, just don't mess me with your emotions, i really hate it...tell me straight what you want and what you don't want, don't come give me your fat lan za face....

2 comments:

fufu said...

fat lan za? once a while is acceptable... not senantiasa ok? hohohoho

頭髮 said...

人生最大的榮耀,不是永遠不敗,而是屢仆屢戰........................................